Yes, we’ve passed another year again and landed in 2009 and there are some things I need to get of my chest and also make myself some promises for the coming year.
Reflection
As I’ve learned again that the ones you trust(ed) can still easily stab you in the back, I’ve also learned to trust again and I have to say that I haven’t felt so much at ease as with mah black fawksy. I haven’t had such an awesome Christmas and new-years in… well… ever. When I think back of the past days, a smile instantly appears on my face again.
Looking forward
As for promises for 2009, quitting smoking is the easiest one, since I’ve already succeeded in that. But, what I need to do now is get healthy again and get rid of a bunch of medications that allow me to breathe comfortably. The meds I take right now are prescribed for a month and it’s all anti-inflammatory to treat the chronic bronchitis. I just hope it’s not COPD, because that thought is the thing that keeps me awake at night sometimes.
So yes, back to the gym again and and make 35.ooo kilo sessions again, 3 times a week. It will be hell, because my physical condition has deteriorated severely after I stopped going to the gym and started to develop the breathing issue, which I have denied for a year. I’m such a stupid ass when it comes to that. “Oh dear, I have a pain here” and then totally ignore it and get on living like nothing is wrong. Maybe the chest pains, the wheezing and terrible cough fits would have given me a signal, but no. Anyway, back to the gym and resume healthiness =D
Second thing is to get rid of my medicine cabinet. Only a few people know the contents of my medicine cabinet and I can tell you that it varies from amino-acid tabs, creatine tabs, a wide variety of pain killers, a wide variety of organ specific stuff, Caffeine and Stacker V tabs, a wide variety of high dosage isolated vitamins and I even found some malaria tablets back. The pile you see here is 2kg of stuff. Stuff of which I now think “WTF was I doing”. So, this has all been trashed and all there is now is some over-the-counter pain meds and vitamins. Thats all I need. And a kiss once in a while when things go bad ^^;
2 Kilos of rubbish. Photo is blurred, you do not need to know what’s there ^^
Final thing for 2009, is to live more relaxed. I am trying desperately to be there for everybody, but I simply can’t and I even neglected some of my dear friends. What I am trying to say here is, that I will continue to be there for every friend and stranger and will do my best to help where I can, but in my tempo and according to my agenda. I need to get rid off the stress factors in my life. That is why I kindly ask anyone who is blocked in my messengers, not to contact me anymore. You have been blocked and deleted for a very good reason, so live with it.
To conclude this lengthy post, I wish everybody an awesome 2009. May this year bring you lots of happiness and good health! And thank you for listening/reading. <3
